Struggling after visit number 2

I’m Mickey and my SO is Jorge. He lives in Florida and I’m from Ohio. We’ve now been together for a year and going to be 4 months on the 11th. He’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me.

He recently visited from Dec 17-Jan 3. This is the second visit, and the most heartbreaking thing I’ve ever went through. Things have been so stressful and heartbreaking that I don’t know if I can ever recover from it. But we’re praying and trying to plan for him to move here in April. So everyone pray that it works for us! lol!